NOTE: This is not to offend anyone's beliefs, and if you have questions, let me know. But I'd like to share something with you, and I'd appreciate if you don't bash or swear against me. Please. But I hope this touches at least some of you.
Again, please don't say any rude or hateful things.

Written by my friend Paige, and God.

It was another cold and lonely day today. Not like all the warm ones I've felt before. I didn't hear a thudding heart to calm me while I rested, but I love you. I didn't feel your hands patting me while you soothed my unsteadiness, but I love you. I reached for comfort and it was no where to be found, but I love you. All of a sudden I felt a force like no other. I gripped my tiny hands into your flesh, but I was not match. I felt like I was being sucked away. And then came the pain. Mommy it really hurt. I know that all the pain I felt yesterday is nothing compared to the hurt you must feel, but I love you. My cries were not enough, but I hoped you'd hear me. The pleas from heaven were mute to your ears, but I hoped you'd hear them. The prayers of others around you didn't seem to penetrate your thick head, but I love you. Mommy please help me understand why you've done this to me? Why you've pushed me away? I've lost my home. I was robbed of a home and a family that I needed. Do you hear me mommy? Why did you not want me? Why was it so easy to just watch as the doctors tore me from your womb and placed me like garbage on the cold table. The pain of that moment is nothing to how much I hurt inside. I needed you mommy.

I pray for you everyday now. I pray that you'll open your ears to something besides what the world tells you. I met the most wonderful man in the world yesterday. As I closed my eys and started to freeze away, I was warmed from within. Arms reached out to me and pulled me close. I hoped it to be you, but it was a man. He spoke nothing but kind words and told me he was my father. Mommy you've never told me about this man before? The way his eyes glisten with joy as he holds me close and tells me everything is alright. The way he laughs and smiles and expresses his immense joy, only makes me feel loved.

He talks about you too, as if he's known you all of your life. He whispers blessings over your soul and keeps placing people and things in your life that he believes you need. He is very sad though. He loves you so very much and he keeps chasing after you, but your keep pushing and continue running in the opposite direction. Mommy this man told me he forgives you, though I'm not sure what he means. He knows so much and his heart bleeds for your pain. He told me a story as I sat upon his lap about how he died. He told me that he so loved the world that he died so that everyone may have life. He's welcomed me into his home, and it's beautiful. It's everything we've ever wanted, needed, and imagined. There's a place next to mine that's empty, and he says he's saving it for a special person.

I watch you everyday, and I hug you as I sleep. I kiss your cheeks as tears stream down them. When you are beat around I do my best to stand between you and the violence, but I cannot do it alone. As you sink low to the ground and hover in the corner, clenching your stomach, believing that there is no hope, this man and I pray this thing called a rosary. It's a beautiful necklace looking tool. The beads shine an incredible light, and I see your face in each one as we say prayers to this Man and Woman. Mommy it's so pretty! Why did you never do this with me? Why have I never heard these beautiful chants of praise?

This man told me his name today mommy. He said his name is Jesus and that he will rescue you. We heard you speaking to us today. Oh, how I've missed your delicate voice. This man Jesus is very pleased with your efforts today. He told me that He sees great things in your future as you walk to find Him. He also told me who the special place was for that would one day be next to me, and I wanted to tell you that it's you. Have hope mommy, you'll be lonely no more.

Mommy everything is going to be better now. I'm happy here! There is so much peace in this place! Tears like rain, tears of pain, are washed away in Jesus's name.

Love,
Your Baby

Ps. Jesus told me that my name is Chanah, because it means hope and mercy. These things I pray for you mommy..

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After reading this, I hope that some of you may change your views on certain topics. God bless.